They are still Tied…

my shoestrings are still tied…by the way.

i’ll untie them eventually.  i just want to process why they made it on my “do not interact” list.

i’ve come to realize that i’ve really blacklisted some people from my life?  what is this blacklist, you ask?  well, it is a list of people who’ve submitted numerous personal checks, usually in the form of promises.  when i go to cash them bad boys, the checks bounce! now, no one’s perfect, so that’s bound to happen in any relationship.  however, if it’s consistent…that’s a problem!  can someone say, “bounced check fee?”

the people on this list are the ones who’s checks i don’t accept.  AT ALL.  it takes me a while to get there.  i’m very trusting and forgiving.  but once i get there…MAN.  i’ll forgive you, but our interaction will probably be limited.

one thing i’m learning tho, is that you can only forgive someone to the extent that you acknowledge the hurt that you feel.  i guess i keep surprising myself b/c i realize just how hurt i was/am.

maybe i haven’t quite finished grieving yet…